4 posts tagged “dennis a. amith”

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I actually started letting friends know about my current business situation and I have to admit, it was hard at first.  So, many people I went to college with, associate with always expected big things for myself, I expect big things for myself.

But I admit after six consecutive years of doing well for my business, the last 8 months have been difficult, challenging and more of a wait and see attitude to see if the market and economy would change and to also see how some of my associates/competition are fairing.

But while talking with friends who also lost their high tech related jobs to friends who I can just talk to understanding... it has helped.

But the problem I'm having now is a battle with insomnia within the past week.  My brain is like a computer...trying to crunch all these variables and when I'm laying down and trying to go to bed, my mind wants to work and think of plan A through Z. 

I actually went to bed before midnight but my brain was working overdrive, then when I felt extremely tired, my ears started to zero-in on every cricket chirp, dog bark or car passing by.  By then it was 4:00 a.m., and so pissed that I started working out and by 5:00 a.m., was able to get I think a little sleep as I woke up at 7:30 a.m.

Mainly stick through the hard times because all businesses go through a hard and difficult time(s), to trying something else new and see where it takes me to the usual job security, stability, benefits, etc.

So, I made some baby steps and letting friends and associates know that I can't travel to their event, film festival in their state just like that, I can't buy the nice birthday present gifts nor can I travel or plan on vacations without knowing how each month is going to be.  I am going to live through a budget, make sure I can afford to pay my bills and take care of my family but at the same time...just prepare.

It's so interesting because I usually don't get too personal about my feelings like this, especially on a blog.  For those who have been with MMC for years, typically came into read about the entertainments side of my life or the people I'm covering but I guess, now you're getting to see a complex side of me..especially a side that is just trying to survive.

Stay tuned!

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Woke up earlier this morning for Christian's third straight Easter Egg Hunt.  We realized that this year's festivity would be held at another park (the other area supposedly was not good because a drunk guy fell in the lake or something and died).  So, at first I felt that things were fine...not many people or kids...that was until the last 10 minutes before it started.  Possibly over a hundred kids and maybe fifty easter eggs and various candy scattered around. 

Christian found three eggs which was pretty good considering there were way too many kids and not enough eggs but he came home disappointed.  Last year, he won first place and this year, all he had were three eggs. 

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So, we'll have our own Easter Egg Hunt for him tomorrow or later today.

Anyway, the night sleeping on the new bed was just awesome.  The bed was just awesome and definitely one of the best purchases I made so far in 2008 or possibly in my life.  Man, I don't know why I held out so long to buy a good bed.

Today, I feel like watching the "Passions of Christ" DVD that I bought years ago and friends and family have borrowed and viewed.  But as much as I want to watch it, I feel like playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl on the Wii or watching more Friday Night Lights.  Just bought that DVD and I thank Ellen for recommending it to me.

But then again, I need to work on the Europe and Australia section for my upcoming article.  I know...trying not to let my compulsive work behavior get the best of me...

I decided that I wanted to keep MMC away from my major pages.  I can imagine my brother Charles giving me an earful right now of lost potential of numbers through my main sites by moving my blog elsewhere not on my server.

But truthfully, MMC has mainly been an insight for friends and those who follow my work to just to read about my inner thoughts of the day, as if my Twittering is not enough.

But also, I would like to keep my entertainment writing separate from my blogs.  It's all good!  A new fresh start.  No more posting MMC stuff on my website or on MySpace either. 

This will be my destination...this is where I share with you.  Welcome to Metro Media Complex friends and new friends.  Welcome to my complex world...